A Kinder, Gentler Venom and Bile

Lunchtime help?

2009-11-28T02:24:51Z

I'm trying to eat better and I'm trying to spend less money. Hn. Neither, oddly enough, are very easy. I'm slightly picky, and I tend to get bored with the same damn thing over and over again. (ie: I'm not a fan of pork, and really not a fan of re-heated pork, nor do I like yogurts with fruit chunks, oatmeal unless it's in cookies, Top Ramen makes me sick, may be the only person in North America that has never liked PB 'n J sandwiches, etc.) When I was living alone, I somehow found it easier to figure out the lunch thing, but it got sorta boring: rice cakes with cream cheese, cucumber/carrot/pepper/celery slices with low-fat ranch, vegetarian "buffalo wings" or "chik'n nuggets" (sooooo good, btw, even for those of us who dig meat.) I'm trying to do water all the time (yay for having a Sigg bottle!) instead of juices or sodas, but man...I attempt to shop for lunch stuff and I just get the same old same old. Today it was bagels, lunch meat, trisket crackers, and yogurt. And to top it off, I normally need a little something in the mornings (right now, it's blueberry frosted Shredded Wheat cereal with soy milk) and for my mid-morning break, before the big deal lunch around 12:30/1pm. Why, WHY, is lunch so hard?

I attempted some Google-fu today and looked for ideas, and actually found a few, but I ask of you, beloved f-list, what are your tried 'n trues, your favorites, or even blogs dedicated to this very subject, etc. I am so desperate here, going out almost every day is killing the budget!

~ Chicken Pesto sandwich (they suggested a crossiant. I'd probably use a crusty sandwich roll and add mozarella cheese.)
~ Mini Layered Salad (with peas, cheese, carrots, lettuce, etc.)
~ Mini Taco Salads (I might be sorta obsessed with taco salad...)
~ Antipasto/Cold Pasta salads (but because of the aforementioned slight pickyness, I'm still looking for recipes)

Any help? <3

Meme?

2009-10-17T00:00:38Z

Stolen from mcgarrygirl78 and aoibhe :

One little compliment can make you feel amazing. So give me a compliment, anything in the entire world, even that my shoelaces are pretty. Put this in your journal. And once you get some comments, put that entry in a memory or tag and when you are feeling down, just go to that entry and this will remind you of how great you are.

Comments screened, because that's how everyone else is doin' 'em, and I'm all sheepy today! <3

brought to you by the letters F and U

2009-10-16T23:53:02Z

*headdesk*

There is nothing better than birthday cake. It's like a slice of concentrated love with buttercream

2009-09-26T16:53:29Z

Yanno what? It's isolabela's birthday today! What can I say about my twin? She is love and support and extreme silliness personified. We can be perfectly happy together, lolling about on the couch, knitting and watching Saiyuki and eating teriyaki, and we can roam about the campus of her old school at 11pm, shouting and giggling into the phone and racing to find a good place to sit. She is amazing, and I can't imagine NOT having her in my life - she's mine, and I'm not letting gooooo. I LOVE YOU TWIN! I hope that your birthday is amazing and wonderful and you have way too much cake and way too little sadness in the day and the coming year. Enjoy, sweetness! ♥♥♥

9/11/01

2009-09-11T13:18:18Z

I remember today, 8 years ago, so vividly. Cannot believe that it's been 8 years already.

chubbybunnie @ 2009-09-09T16:17:00

2009-09-09T23:17:23Z

Talked with coworkers how the lab tends towards butthurt of the epic variety. Trufax. Also, that Big Bosses are complete tossers for cancelling/ignoring three birthdays/parties, and instead bringing in a fuckton of food to woo a new dentist and demand that we admire it. Pasted. On. Smiles. Guh. Can I just...move to Arizona? Now? How about now? *flop*

Snagged meme from my aoibhe
day 01 | a song
day 02 | a picture
day 03 | a book/ebook/fanfic
day 04 | a site
day 05 | a youtube clip
day 06 | a quote
day 07 | whatever tickles your fancy

“Be Who You Are and Say What You Feel Because Those Who Mind Don't Matter and Those Who Matter Don't Mind.”
~ Dr. Suess (I suspect that this is kinda sorta totally inspired and dedicated to xtinethepirate ♥ )

chubbybunnie @ 2009-09-08T16:43:00

2009-09-08T23:43:16Z

Have a couple of more things to make before I can cross them off my list!

Today went by bloody fast, even with my cell dying before noon. Got in a little knitting at my break, even. Also, I have to say that Kythryne over at Wyrding Studios is SUCH A FRIGGING YARN PIMP, that she's got me considering a $65 skein of laceweight silk. The colors, people, THE COLORS! And the SOFT. Argh. Argh argh argh. She spent many convincing messages on flickr about this particular brand (Sundara Yarn) and lord help me...I'm considering putting aside money in order to pay for the exorbinately, freakishly, selfishly lavish yarn. *sigh*

Snagged meme from my aoibhe
day 01 | a song
day 02 | a picture
day 03 | a book/ebook/fanfic
day 04 | a site>
day 05 | a youtube clip
day 06 | a quote
day 07 | whatever tickles your fancy

17 Things I Made and the follow-up The Beckoning Of Lovely - be warned, I cry like a baby during the second one (I dunno either, dude, I just do. It's one of those things.) AMAZING IDEA. <333

Things Accomplished - A List By Wren

2009-09-07T20:00:45Z

1) ~~Vaccuming~~ - Yes. Floor no longer is scary to sit on. \o/

2) ~~Hematite mini pendants~~ - Mercury Retrograde, eat mah hematite! Made for me, and the Ohana Collective (aoibhe, secretchristine, isolabela) edited to add one for xtinethepirate who might need a little extra TLC this retrograde as well ♥

Sterling silver headpin, sterling silver jumpring, hematite oval, blue goldstone faceted round, chillin' on a chunk of rose quartz, for extra love.

3) ~~Small Evil's faerie princess birthday set~~ - for my favorite birthday girl! ♥ And yes, I am that obnoxious with my spelling of "faerie" =P

Necklace: Sedona ceramic fae pendant, pink crackle glass rounds, clear glass teardrops, faceted pink glass flowers, dyed pink freshwater pearls, faceted rose quartz teardrops, vintage faceted crystal rounds, sterling silver jumprings and clasp, dangling vintage faceted crytal round on sterling silver headpin attached to clasp, strung on tigertail.

Bracelet: faceted rose quartz diamond bead, clear glass E-bead with pink center, faceted rose quartz tear drops, faceted pink glass flower, dyed pink freshwater pearl, Ohana faceted rose quartz heart focal bead, sterling silver clasp and jump rings, strung on tingertail.

4) ~~Worked on seeeekrit knitting project~~

5) ~~Made my first knitting row counter bracelet~~ Aka: Behold! Wren's chubby hands and pasty whiteness! =P

Faceted rose quartz Ohana heart, sterling silver flat flower spacers, white and pale pink freshwater pearls, pink crackle glass rounds, swarovski crystals, dyed pink freshwater pearls, faceted rose quartz diamond, sterling silver clasp, strung on tigertail.

At Christmas play and make good cheer, For Christmas comes but once a year.

2009-09-07T17:56:26Z

Hey gang! For me, Christmas/Yule/Winter is constantly on my mind of late. Last year? After two-and-a-half feet of snow, for MONTHS, work, having no power for 12 hours on Christmas day itself, no Christmas Eve family party, no gifts, no real birthday...well, let me tell you. I was bummed, and more than a little "off" on the whole holiday season. But this year? This year, I Have Plans. Plans of amazing, ohana-drenched family togetherness. A real birthday, a real Christmas, maybe even a bit of real Solistice fun. Plus, the Wee Evils always make holidays that much more fun! So, unlike the past couple of years where I've been down and depressed and not really in the Holiday Spirit, I am changing that this year!

I would love to send out some cards this Christmas! You guys have stuck around me and my Crazy all year long, and I want to put a little love in each of your mailboxes! I'm starting early this year (with EVERYTHING, really) so please, send me your addresses if you'd like a card! I have a bunch saved, but if you've recently moved (xtinethepirate?? Same address for you, or has it changed?), or know me and realize that I have a tendency to put things down and lost them (heh), gimme 'em in my comments? They will be screened for privacy.

Thank you, bestest f-list! <333 Happy 3 day weekend to those of you who aren't working today (like meeee!) I'm off to craft - for myself, for the ravelry.com RAK group, and for my ohana! xoxoxo

chubbybunnie @ 2009-09-06T21:17:00

2009-09-07T04:17:29Z

I cannot get rid of this headache, and I don't know what to do anymore. Since yesterday morning, around 3am, in between waking moments (there's been a lot of those the past few days. Gah!) Soooo happy it's a three day weekend, because I have no desire to go to work tomorrow, especially with this stupid headache lingering the way it is. Meds aren't even touching it, I'm drinking water (and peeing constantly because of it - also interrupting my sleep with numerous trips to the bathroom, TMI! =P) and frankly, I'm about ready to pop a klonopin to a) see if it's stress related, which it might be, and b) knock me on my ass completely. One of the only times I've slept a solid night in the past three or so months was due to a major panic attack and needing chill-the-fuck-out meds. *grin*

Anyway, knitting knitting knitting this week, instead of playing around online too much. I miss mah peeps, but no one seems to be around either - ded intrawebz iz ded. ;_; Attempting to write, but the muse is sulking and won't play fair (to anyone who has been subjected to my muse, this really shouldn't surprise me in any way. Apparently, Hope Springs Eternal here as well. =P) But there's good things along with the bad, and I'm choosing to focus on those. *nodnod* Got the most adorable shoes - sorta Mary Janes meet Sneakers. My basis for them, as with all things right now, were, "Easy to take off at the airport, and good for an Arizona "winter" *giggle*" =P Also, along those same lines, the LeSportSac messenger bag, my end-all be-all of messenger bags was 50% off PLUS 15% off, and I finally bought one!! It carries all my important stuff (iPod? Check. Kindle? Check check. Wallet, notebook, glasses case, small knitting project? CHECK!) It even was one of my favorite prints, the trees with the birds and fruit. SCORE! Yesterday = gud shopping day. Also, since it was brunch with my mom's side of the family today, and Nate, true to form, didn't show up, we have leftover breakfast casserole that I am soooo nomming on tomorrow while I sit around in pjs and watch bad tv and dvds. Yanno, INSTEAD OF BEING AT WORK. HA! Take that, Monday.

Snagged meme from my, aoibhe
day 01 | a song
day 02 | a picture
day 03 | a book/ebook/fanfic
day 04 | a site
day 05 | a youtube clip
day 06 | a quote
day 07 | whatever tickles your fancy

I am a HUGE FAN of Smitten Kitchen. Deb takes some SERIOUS food pr0n pics, and has some amazing recipes. Plus, she's silly and witty and adorkable (and expecting her first baby! 'Grats, Deb!) Also, I cannot go without mentioning the Mommy Blog To End All Mommy Blogs, Dooce.com. Seriously, Heather's writing makes me cry with laughter. This woman, is so freakin' talented, so hilarious, so blunt and offensive, yet caring and loving, all at the same time. And if you're like me, with a serious fiber-related itch to scratch, Ravelry.com is the best thing out there for knitters and crocheters since the invention of...well...YARN. Patterns galore, groups, friends, inspiration, and lots and lots of yarn pics. I've been RAKing a lot there (Randon Acts of Kindness), helping out my fellow brethren of the needles and wool. Makes me a happy panda.

chubbybunnie @ 2009-09-02T16:41:00

2009-09-02T23:41:26Z

I just wanna say that my new layout is PEEEEENK and berrylicious. And also wifeylicious, since aoibhe put it up for me. *beams* ILY!

I burned myself three times today. One on my right palm, one on my right arm, and the other on my left wrist, just barely missing my tattoo. I give up. *sigh*

Snagged meme from my darling wifey, aoibhe
day 01 | a song
day 02 | a picture
day 03 | a book/ebook/fanfic
day 04 | a site
day 05 | a youtube clip
day 06 | a quote
day 07 | whatever tickles your fancy

Probably the best Draco/Luna fanfic I have ever read. It's an unusual pairing, not as out there as most in the Potterverse, but this woman writes them...just so beautifully. And I'm notorious for being super picky over fanficition. Draco/Luna OTP! <333

just a meme kind of day

2009-09-02T00:18:33Z

Snagged this meme from my darling wifey, aoibhe
day 01 | a song
day 02 | a picture
day 03 | a book/ebook/fanfic
day 04 | a site
day 05 | a youtube clip
day 06 | a quote
day 07 | whatever tickles your fancy

Because Natalie Dee is a friggin' genius. And this is the one cartoon out of alllllllll the others that coworker J. "cannot get over" how me this is. So there you go. ^_~

The place where optimism most flourishes is the lunatic asylum

2009-08-31T23:36:17Z

Stomach still hates me, but to be fair, I ate a hamburger today. I know, it was my WTF WREN?! moment. Hey, I never claimed any of you loved me because I was smart or nuthin'. =P Also, apparently Hope Springs Eternal, because after frogging* a knitting project last night, and nearly flinging yarn across my room fueled by bad, bad, bad language of the salty variety, I found a variation of the same pattern, and thought to myself, "Hey! Instead of just the two or three I was going to knit BEFORE CHRISTMAS, I'll be able to knit FIVE! No six, I can make one for myself!" Oh. Oh self. You can see how deluded I was this morning, with the adding of one for me. *shakes head* Like I said before, I never claimed to be Reid-like in my intelligence level. =P

* to "frog" something is to "rip-it" apart. Yanno. Rip-it, rip-it? Like Ribbit? Honestly, guys, it's not like I can just make this up all on my own. =P

Snagging this meme from my darling wifey, aoibhe (baaaaah!)
day 01 | a song
day 02 | a picture
day 03 | a book/ebook/fanfic
day 04 | a site
day 05 | a youtube clip
day 06 | a quote
day 07 | whatever tickles your fancy

George Harrison - My Sweet Lord (This song is just one of those that everytime I hear it on the radio, I have to turn it up and sing along. It's just so...I dunno. Zen. Plus, I ♥ George.)

My sweet lord
Hm, my lord
Hm, my lord

I really want to see you
Really want to be with you
Really want to see you lord
But it takes so long, my lord

My sweet lord
Hm, my lord
Hm, my lord

I really want to know you
Really want to go with you
Really want to show you lord
That it won't take long, my lord (hallelujah)

My sweet lord (hallelujah)
Hm, my lord (hallelujah)
My sweet lord (hallelujah)

I really want to see you
Really want to see you
Really want to see you, lord
Really want to see you, lord
But it takes so long, my lord (hallelujah)

My sweet lord (hallelujah)
Hm, my lord (hallelujah)
My, my, my lord (hallelujah)

I really want to know you (hallelujah)
Really want to go with you (hallelujah)
Really want to show you lord (aaah)
That it won't take long, my lord (hallelujah)

Hmm (hallelujah)
My sweet lord (hallelujah)
My, my, lord (hallelujah)

Hm, my lord (hare krishna)
My, my, my lord (hare krishna)
Oh hm, my sweet lord (krishna, krishna)
Oh-uuh-uh (hare hare)

Now, I really want to see you (hare rama)
Really want to be with you (hare rama)
Really want to see you lord (aaah)
But it takes so long, my lord (hallelujah)

Hm, my lord (hallelujah)
My, my, my lord (hare krishna)
My sweet lord (hare krishna)
My sweet lord (krishna krishna)
My lord (hare hare)
Hm, hm (Gurur Brahma)
Hm, hm (Gurur Vishnu)
Hm, hm (Gurur Devo)
Hm, hm (Maheshwara)
My sweet lord (Gurur Sakshaat)
My sweet lord (Parabrahma)
My, my, my lord (Tasmayi Shree)
My, my, my, my lord (Guruve Namah)
My sweet lord (Hare Rama)

[fade:]

(hare krishna)
My sweet lord (hare krishna)
My sweet lord (krishna krishna)
My lord (hare hare)

Faerie Princess Necklace...maybe

2009-08-28T00:01:11Z

Am having a shitty day. But I thought maybe a fantastically pink necklace might help...

So I'm totally not sure about the beads, or the length, or really anything about it quite yet. There are groups of seven "dew drop" clear beads at either side of the clasp (seven being the soon-to-be-age of the princess in question), with pink speckled "faerie stones", with faceted glass flowers, pink freshwater pearls, rose quartz "dew drops", vintage crystal rounds, and the pink fae that I bought for the birthday girl when we were in Flagstaff in June. I promise, it's WAY more sparkly in real life. *tilts head* Hmm...

Whatcha think, y'all?

sick week is sick

2009-08-26T20:57:36Z

It's one of those weeks with my stomach where it's all I can do just to make it through work. Blech. Am sorta around but not really - been spending the past two days laying around, knitting, and watching dvds because I just can't handle anything more.

Good thing for today though, mom texted me and said that my yarn swift got here. Woot! It was shipped out Monday, fast shipping is love for an impatient person like me.

[edit 4:46pm] and now, I'm not feeling so particularly awful. STOMACH. WTH?! *flops* So anyway, here's some pics of the polar bear I knitted for Coworker S:

He's all cute, with his head cocked to the side

Chillin' in the front pocket of the purse Coworker S. made for me <3

But in the end the only steps that matter are the ones you take all by yourself

2009-08-24T23:19:58Z

Spent today pretty damn sick. Honestly, I do not need a repeat of May. Because it was full of not fun, and even if I want to lose more weight, I also like to feel like a human, and eat real food. Pls and thank you.

Ten for Ten!

1) Coworker S. made me an adorable purse, perfect size for small knitting projects (she also tucked in a package of Hello Kitty tissues *grin*)

2) Despite The Sick, I managed to not have an awful Monday.

3) Day went by relatively quickly.

4) S's knitted polar bear almost finished!

5) My yarn swift was shipped today! \o/

6) I fully plan on drinking ginger tea, watch CSI:NY, finish the Polar Bear, and wind laceweight yarn just for the hell of it.

7) Searching for uber cheap airfare and downtown Seattle (near Pike Place!) hotel rooms.

8) ZOMG!Twitter spam all. last. night. Fantastic. I love you guys, you know that?

9) Talkative Muse is talkative. >.> Also, plot points and character issues started to get resolved last night. \o/ I love us, aoibhe.

10) Why do people think of me when they see this picture? *snerk* ^_~

Roger The Pink Hippo

2009-08-24T03:21:45Z

I kept forgetting to take pics of Roger (named by mcgarrygirl78, but was finally persuaded by aoibhe.

I give you, the crocheted hippo from my friend's mommy:

Wren's Weekend Wreview

2009-08-23T22:04:37Z

So on Friday, my father, true to form, was a complete and utter asshole. Yanno, I'm not entirely sure what I did - or, rather, what I've DONE my entire life - to deserve his contempt, but I just grew to shovel it back. He spent the better part of 15 minutes yelling at me because I missed the turn off to Carynn's apartment building. Every single thing that came out of his mouth was basically to show just what a fuck-up and stupid person I was, and how he *gasp* had to find a place to turn around one whole half a block in order to get back to the driveway. Jesus on a pogo stick. I cannot stand this man. It's not even as if it was out of his way, they had to drive past it anyway to get to my uncle's anyway. I just...I just don't get him. -_-

Other than that, the weekend wasn't too shabby. Got co-worker S's polar bear all knit up, watched a lot of tv, ate some Thai food, and hardly slept. Didn't have internet all of Friday and part of Saturday due to the fact that I wasn't left a password to the net like I was suppose to, but she eventually texted it to me, so all was good.

Now, Ten For Ten. I'm back, bebe!

1) I got my first gift in the mail from the ravelry.com Random Acts of Kindness group! HEE! Not only was there the promised handmade Barbie clothes for my Pullip dolls (omg, KNITTED PANTIES! *gigglefit* SO FUN!), there was also a wee bit of some pretty wool, and teeeeny US1 sized knitting needles. <3 Sooo nice!

2) I found a yarn swift on my most favorite place to shop, etsy.com this morning! Handmade, and only $19.95 + $11 shipping. The swift I saw at the craft store last weekend? $80. I'm so psyched. I might just be able to pull of my Xmas gift knitting list after all!

3) Kitty snuggles from Quickdraw and Milo. <3

4) Coming home TO MY OWN BED. Oh, how I missed it.

5) Angel, Burn Notice, CSI:NY, AND Juno dvds, alllll waiting for me.

6) Twitter!spam with my ohana and darling friends all weekend long.

7) Every passing day brings me one step closer to AZ. <3

8) Funny text messages from the twin, isolabela ♥

9) THAI FUD. Even if I shouldn't have eaten it due to the fact that my stomach is still completely stupid. OM nom nom nom!

10) The sun is shining outside, and I don't have the Sunday blues. ^_________^

grrrr

2009-08-22T03:07:43Z

C. was suppose to leave me her net pass, and she totally didn't. Waiting on her text with it still, so until then, I'm stuck without. Gaaaah. Hopefully will be up tomorrow, or that there's a Starbucks with wifi nearby. =p Ten for tem is slightly postponed.

Thursday blahs

2009-08-21T00:23:21Z

Bummed. Doc just...didn't show up for my appointment. No message. Just a locked door and no one answering the phone. -_- Am trying to not let it bother me, after all, I didn't have to spend any money on it, but--

Okay, so right in the middle of typing this out? Doc called. Apparently, she called someone with my name to confirm appointment time, person called her back and said that they never had that date scheduled! Doppelganger is going to the same doctor. Um...should I be scared? Next appointment available is the 10th of September. So I took it. Guess nerves will have to settle until then. *sigh*

S'okay. Ten for ten.

1) Not actually getting "dumped" by my doc. Hooray!

2) Two new Fuzzymitten.com patterns are soon-to-be-published - a chipmunk and a pug! THE PUG HAS A CURLY TAIL!

3) It's Thursday. Tomorrow is Friday! Hal-freakin-llujah

4) One of my ravelry.com RAK girls got her needles I sent her today.

5) Shall spend some time downloading s3 of Burn Notice for this weekend.

6) SENDING LOTS OF JOB LUCK AND LOVE TO MY secretchristine!!

7) Nomtastic things to eat in the fridge

8) Despite waiting around for a no-show doc appointment, I totally got my walk in today, going from work to the office.

9) Have I mentioned that tomorrow's Friday?

10) New Terry Brooks Landover book. Time to do some library cruising!

Just find a place to make your stand

2009-08-19T23:22:45Z

Very tired today, so I shall make this quick-like.

1) No longer caring what PMS!boy thinks, and standing up for myself against him and his nitpicking. He. Does. Not. Like. This. HA, I say. =p

2) Dancing around to the iPod in the back of the lab, and not having to deal with anyone.

3) Both The Eagles and Boston's Greatest Hits albums. WOOT!

4) One day closer to Friday.

5) Stil riding high on the prospect of having a weekend to myself. Cat-sitting, hee!

6) (For once) feeling self-confident.

7) The fact that I am sitting on my bed, all nice and stretched out. So. Tired. Zzzz...

8) Almost have leg numero dos of co-worker S.'s polar bear done. Tonight, I sorta wanna get as much of it done as I can.

9) Co-worker B. is giving me the recipe for this waaaay yummy eggpiebreakfasty thing she brought in one morning. SO GUD. Gonna make it this weekend.

10) My fantastic f-list. I know you guys are friends with me for a reason, someday I'll figure that reason out, but whatever it is, I hope I never stop doing it, because you all keep me sane. LOVES! <333

I have no idea for a clever title today =P

2009-08-18T23:38:57Z

There is like...some serious work drama goin' down. Blah. It's the kind where I really just want to stay out of it, but it's also kinda VIVA LA REVOLUCION! So we shall see...

Ten For Ten - Tuesday Edition:

1) Phone calls to/from the ohana. Last week from secretchristine, this week to aoibhe, and a few weeks ago, a marathon of handing the phone back and forth between the three of us when I needed a pick me up. ILY. <3 SO MUCH.

2) Co-workers dug the bagels and cream cheese I brought in for them for breakfast. Co-worker B. wrote me a nice note and stuck it to my time card. <3

3) Got the red streaks for Lenore!Pullip's wig last night. Duuuude, it's gonna look SO COOL.

4) Being a cat sitter this weekend for a friend of mine. That means I get her apartment all to myself, Friday-Sunday. WOOT! I miss living alone.

5) BEING HOME. Today wasn't bad, and I had a bounce in my step, but work peeps be all sorts of pissed. So being home now is a good thing.

6) I had the Date My Avatar song stuck in my head all day. Felicia Day is pretty hot. Gotta love the redheads.

7) Saving up the last five s5 eps of CSI:NY for this weekend. Antici.....pation!

8) Sent out my ravelry.com Random Acts of Kindness gifts today. <3

9) I rock ALL of mcgarrygirl78's socks. HEE! *snuggles*

10) It's all pretty and sunny out today. It's hot too, but I missed the sun.

Saturday, shmatterday

2009-08-16T05:36:15Z

I need a new LJ layout. Something bright and cheeky and possibly lots of pink and other lovely sorts of colors. I adore my beautiful SPN boys, but all the dark...I need a change. Blah.

Knitting, knitting, knitting. Stress knitting is good, if only because it makes you pick up all the projects you've been neglecting/procrastinating on. Of course, I still have three unfinished stuffed toys, a Polar Bear to start in on for my co-worker, a ton and a half of Christmas gifts, a pair of socks, nearly completed fingerless mitts, and my Noro 1x1 rib striped scarf - which I actually managed to pick up and knit on while deep in the middle of s5 of CSI:NY (I *love* instant Netflix on my computer.) 1x1 rib is easy when you need something to keep your hands busy, and when you want to watch something on the computer instead of watching your hands be busy. And busy they have to be. I have got some seriously idle hands atm, and it's doing me no favors at all.

Also, learned about a possible source for the months of waking up randomly bruised, and also...um...just the waking up. Several times a night. Every. Single. G'damn. Night. My anti-d's may be the cuplrit. Fanfuckingtastic. Guh. It causes bruising and sleeplessness (I was warned not to take them after 3pm as they would keep me awake, but c'mon...GUH!) It's on the side effects list in the pamphlet they hand me every time I fill my prescript. But me? I don't read it. Mostly because I'm stupid. Hey, I never claimed any of you liked me for my brains. My mother was the one who read it a couple of days ago and put 2 and 2 together. I wake up covered in bruises, guys. All the way down my legs, my arms, even the tops of my feet. I'm clumsy, this has been witnessed by several people - in fact, I'm KNOWN for it. There's a reason my sister gave me my awkward-girl.net domain, just sayin' - but this is ridiculous. I'm about ready to chuck the whole thing and just tell my doc to put me on effin' Prozac. This is me. Totally fed up. With like...everything. -_-;; I don't think I'd be nearly so depressed if I could just find the freaking right things to make me feel better. My bad hip from the car accident is acting up too. Think it's the weather, going from cool to BLAZING HOT back to the low 60's. So, along with stress knitting, I've been stress EATING, and OH GODS NO I AM NOT GOING BACK TO THAT. Uh uh, not a chance. I am going to continue LOSING weight, not gain it all back. I will not let the one good thing that happened from getting so godawful sick go. Not to a handful of candy bars all week. Nuh.

Hey, but the one good thing about, well, the past three weeks? Is that I am totally gonna figure out this crochet thing once and for all tomorrow. C.'s mom and C. and I are all getting together for a craft day. I'll help mom with knitting patterns, she's gonna help me with crochet, and C. is gonna make her felt critters, and it shall be made of win.

But for the moment, I've had the same headache since last Friday, and I am going to bed.

<3

2009-08-11T22:59:02Z

For the next hour, I'm around if anyone wants a wee random graphic (or not so random, if you know what you want.) They're gonna be teeny, because that's just what I do.

Random Acts of Kindness Tuesday

2009-08-11T13:23:06Z

So after a horrendous weekend, and a sleepless, sick, miserable few days, I joined a RAK group (Random Acts of Kindness) on Ravelry.com. Within the first hour of looking at the wishlists, I was able to send something to two people, and really...it made me happy. Most of the time, I feel horribly selfish, horribly jealous, horribly immature and always stupid. Like I can't do anything right, and no wonder no one wants me. It's self-pitying and I know it, and it makes me so mad at myself, that I get right back onto that circle and end up feeling even worse.

But yanno what? The most fun I've had in a long time are the days when I've opened the blog to you all and offered things out just because YOU ALL are awesome. Maybe the RAK hasn't changed my life, but it's made me realize that I need to break out of myself (and my stupid brain that fabricates and misinterprets and worries needlessly until I'm half-crazed and completely sick). Cleaned out my yarn chest (yes, I have a yarn chest, DON'T JUDGE ME! =p) and found a lonely skein of never-been-used sock yarn (a high commodity in the RAK Ravelry group) and a few sets of Addi Turbo circular needles that, since getting my Denise interchangable kit, are sorta obsolete now. I have them now on my rocker, waiting to find new homes on the forum.

So, in honor of me getting a full night's sleep (yay for anxiety!attack meds), I am declaring RAK Monday on the ole blog here. And since yesterday I was battling with my stomach and body (yay chronic pain! =p), it's gonna be a day late - RAK TUESDAY!

When I get home, my mouse, and any small craft projects or items around my room are up for your enjoyment. Today, since I'm still feeling a bit of that sick/miserable/blah feeling, I'm gonna start out slow. It's Random Pixels day! Details forthcoming...

Have a happy Tuesday, f-list. I'm working on smiling today. ♥